I know I haven't been around in months. Lots has happened, but haven't written much. Hopefully I will be able to keep up...
The biggest thing, is I left Barbados.
I just couldn't do it. I couldn't stay. I loved my friends, I loved my job, I loved my yoga and dance classes, but I loved him too and can't stay where he is (among other reasons) so I am now back in Canada. I need to move on and know I can't move on there . I was only there for one reason, and no matter the life I am able to build for myself apart from him, I just couldn't stay.
Some people may look at it as 'quitting' but I see it as doing what is best. Canada is what is best.
I often think of my friends that I had (still have as we are in touch often!). They got me through such a rough time. It's funny being an ex-pat. You leave your family and friends behind, to meet new people, who slowly become your friends and family. You don't know them very long, or at first not even very well, but you are able to bond and connect at a deeper level, because you are all a million miles away from everyone else.
These friends, who knew me only a short few months, were the people who listened to me cry, (my friends at home did that over the phone too) kept me company, and got me drunk when I needed it. :)
I don't know what I would do without them.
I don't know when I will see them again, or what paths our lives will take. But they have made such a difference in my life they have no idea.
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xoxo
